scorpio

寂寞…

寂寞是什么? 是一种感觉还是一种心情?

好像很久都没有被它找上了….

被它缠着的感觉好差….

看着熙熙攘攘的街道,来来往往的人群,璀璨夺目的霓红灯

我寂寞…

抬头望着数着天花板,看着墙上的壁虎,连它们都成双成对

我寂寞…

听着收音机里传出的歌,面对空荡荡的房间,寂寞的双人床

我寂寞…

讨厌让寂寞找上的自己,

讨厌需索无度的自己，

讨厌庸人自扰的自己,

讨厌让人无法靠近 ,却有无法走向人群的自己

好讨厌    好寂寞

    Had been rather down recently, im not sad but is just that i felt that the jovial side of me had gone…Nothing can interest me anymore..The usual stuffs that used to brightened up my life had failed to do so nowadays.

    What depressed me most is that i don’t really understand why i had been having this terrible mood swing…I can’t really figure out a particular incidence that made me feel so..Maybe too much things happened recently..to me, to the ppl around me and to the ppl closest to me…But feeling down is something that is so contagious that a chain reaction can happen. Somebody / something made me feel down, when i feel down the one who is closest to me will feel down, looking at the ppl closest to u feeling so down how am i supposed to become happy?

       Today i met with some1 that made me feel better. Cant say im happy now but at least wid him i can forget the fact that im having a mood swing.Known him long ago actually but never take any initiative to make fren with him. I got to admit that the first sight i saw him i was actually quite scare of him..I just cant bring myself to get any closer to him.

      Dunno why today i suddenly got the courage to face him and in fact im rather happy to have him accompany me today.Going outing with him  is something that i had never tried before and i got to say im quite enjoyed doing it. Seeing him running here and there like a kid helped me get away from my mood swing. Thanks to him i found back the sense of freedom that i had been seeking for all these while..

      I think after today’s outing we can be friend in the coming future. Im no longer afraid of him anymore and i wil try to bring myself 1 step closer to him..Hopefully at the end of the day i can hug him and play with him like every1 else did…

      Thanks ya Golden for being such a great pal today…Looking forward the day to play with u again…