scorpio

Haha….finally de dread summative test over liao!

      After test..lesson learned:

a) don ever study in detail

b) don study Marieb as if it is a bible

c) study lecture notes as if it is bible!

d) must study lecture notes esp words in BOLD !

e) Memorise only de big diagram in notes

   I think this is the only conclusion after de test…Of course la we must study more detail things but only to broaden de knowlegde..to pass exam, jus NOTES!

    To all batchmates of M205, enjoy ur holidays …..:p

   Near summative 1 exam liao….stress?Dunno..maybe a little bit ba..Maybe stil need time to adjust myself..Need to thanks a lot of seniors who helped me during this period ..either by lending notes,giving tips, and other lots of advises..In the past, study to me means understanding n memorising as much as i can and prepare the best 4 de exam…but strange in IMU..some say if u study in details u may fail!!Strange right..but is true coz many seniors experienced it b4..so as a freshman better listen to them..

    Yesterday no mood to study..having a very long chat wif huan…talk about a lot of things…about what we look forward in any relationship,about our future,about the goals and dreams…I had to admit that there is a difference in thinking that we both had…

    To me, life is something that u need to explore …and in the journey of exploring u may find a lot of ppl…some may jus be a passerby that accompany u but will never walk wif u to the end of the journey…There is no guide to decide whether to start a journey wif this particular individual o not so wat we usually do is jus gamble..Gamble our time,youth, emotion,and feeling….If there is a wonderful outcome then congraturations…if not then jus go on wif our life and try to get a better bet next round…

     I know huan will say :"say is easier than done"..true la…of course i only can say so becoz i am a pang2 guan1 zhe3…i know it is hurt..and i know how hurt u r each time we talk bout it…nothing much i can say ..i jus feel that there is no point clinging on a past relationship and let the past tense to become a obstruction to our future tense…Till now this is still my belief..think +ve and live life to the fullest…prove to the 1 who dunno how to cherish us how strong we r..show him how we can survive without them…

    Am i being too optimistic? No i think i jus need these things to psycho myself so that whenever i met any problem i can have a good reason to bring myself up..by not giving myself a chance to drop into terrible conditions…If really 1 day i meet some1 that can cause me to let go of my belief then i really hope this some1 can be the final destination of mine…becoz i know if this thing happen and unfortunately this some1 is jus a passerby, i may not be able to take the risk to gamble again….

     Tats life rite…so to all my jie mei….whoever got problems pls buck up and gambate..and to those still sweet in relationship..+oil and must try hard to stay xing fu….

Growing up…..

   Does growing up means more trouble? If yes ,y 1 need to grow..If no, y am i so troubling?

  Does growing up means tat i got to give up something ? If yes ,y i need to make such sacrifice in order to grow…If no,y am i keep losing somthing tat i cherished a lot?

  Does growing up means i should be more mature? If yes, wat so good bout growing up..If no,den y ppl keep saying tat :"u r almost 20..how could u…."

  Does growing up means simple things will become complicated? If yes, y need to find trouble 4 myself…If no, y cant i remain the same situation in relationships?

  Does growing up means i hv to be strong when problems occur? If yes, y i need to b so cruel to myself..If not, y cant i confide with u like the way we used to do?

   Does growing up means i have to be better in all the things i do? If yes, how should i do to meet de requirement… If not, then y u all like to set such a high target n expectation on me?

   Does growing up means tat i must know how to express myself in a so-called proper manner? If yes, isn’t it a bit tough to put a mask everyday..If no , y cant i show my true self in front of u now?

   Growing up is so TOUGH and TIRING….If i were given a choice i would rather be a kid…at least im happier…But growing up means i may not have a choice to choose wat i want..so too bad i cant choose 4 not growing up…

  Eventhough i cant stop growing up…i will try to grow up in my own way…a may be rebellious way to u but is a way that i am comfortable with….Maybe i still wont be satisfy and may not be happier but at least …I am true to myself….

   Came to kl almost 2 months liao still not familiar wif the environment…Everyday jus stay at bukti jalil..more specific is jus stay at my apartment n the IMU building..so whenever ppl ask me hows is the weather at kl i will say…erm so sorry i dunno coz i always stay indoor :p
    Friday night went to meet some frens at times square…at 1st intend to watch movie but when we reach times square i received a call from winnie n she asked me n c.huan go sungai wang 2 sing k.Luckily got c.huan accompany me or else me alone being a no sense in direction ppl sure will sesat in de middle of concrete jungle….Anyway we reached they smoothly n sang till 7 ++.Den we followed our original plan n proceeded to times square…we had dinner at Johnny’s Restaurant..get to taste the tomyam soup which lots of them keep complained tat is too hot…
      We watched "Skeleton Key" ..quite a nice movie…full of surprises..u will never know wat is waiting 4 u until the end of the movie..shocking ending.After movie i followed huan’s bro car n go makan at ss2..hai at 1st i thought come to kl will lose weight as no home cooked food liao who knows….12 something still eat supper..back home already 2 something liao.Take a bath n zzzzzz at about 3..
       Saturday morning wake up at 10 ++..den do some cleaning .. de room was so dusty due to some renovation going on because of the bathroom leakage…around 11 received sms from fren n go watch movie at midvalley …another movie 4 this week…
      Reached midvalley around 3 ..lepaking here n there…so strange today seem to meet lot of ppl at midvalley…we went to buy tickets..but cant decide which movie to watch…finally we choose de "wait till u r older"starring andy lau…the movie was ok..a bit comedy but more to moral value.De best part of de movie is the old version of andy lau ..so real..even old oso so "eng tau"
     After movie go makan again…go kim gary…heard of the name but never try b4..not bad huh de food there quite special..but de price oso quite special..haha.After dinner go back by komuter..Stupid komuter kept us waiting 4 so long…reach home already 9++…
      Shit la play n play n play 4 2 days continuosly liao….still got a report to do…summative test coming soon oso…better sleep early today n start working tmr…
       oh ya by the way i will b going back jb next week o…so who ever at jb keep in touch wif me ya….